Without a Sound, Without a trace. I am ...
Thursday, May 27, 2010 ♥ My dad
Can't believe that i would actually blog about the person who has caused the most hurt to my family and myself.
I hate him to the core for hurting my mom, sister and even myself.
Why? Let's just say that I just hope he's mentally unstable and what he does is not of this world.
He's the destructor, breaker and the tormentor of the household.
18 years of torture, 18 years of tears, 18 years of hate, 18 years of scars.
How many times have i already kill him in my mind... should we go to hell I'll make sure i'll take u there.
Whitewind no more.... I've becomming Black.
I hate you dad.
Always ,
YOURS
Tuesday, September 15, 2009 ♥ What do you want from me.
1 year has passed,
From the abrupt start of our relationship.
But yet now when our relationship has come under such pressure and uncertainty,
You chose to just stand there and let your mind slowly engulf itself with all the WRONG thoughts.
Believing others then the one you love most.
Unknowingly showing and also giving me the thoughts that you should be even well off with another guy.
Making me feel that I'm a fool again.
I endure, I resist, I suck it up, WHY?
Because I LOVE YOU.
Yet it seems all I do can never make you feel secure..
Do you really, really want me at all...
The bottle in my heart slowly... feels like exploding but yet with no one there to cap it back... whats the use.
Sad Sad SAD!
1 year passed... and you forgot how it was being happily in love...
You slowly eat away the heart that understands you...
Please just tell me what to do...
Always ,
YOURS
Friday, June 5, 2009 ♥ It's goodbye to my personality for good.
So long since i last blog.
So little that I will now type.
It all goes back to square one doesn't it.
Once again another promise will be added to the list.
I cant help but thinking,
I held up my end of the deal yet it's not the out come we both desire..
Seems that no one would and ever will understand.
So i have given up.
This cold heart of mine actually feels quite pain and "suan"
but i guess it might be the last time i'm feeling it.
Think by the time this post got read, I hopefully would have recovered.
Guess u cant really wipe out a person personality with just a 1/8 tank of determination.
I shall just fade out and disappear into the heartless being that I am.
Always ,
YOURS
Thursday, April 9, 2009 ♥
I wonder if i really am that good.
I don't think I am.
It hurts.I could try a million and one ways to bring your mood up permanently, but end up finding a million and one ways to make you happy for that moment.
I lost to a big hello kitty.Really hope you would enjoy today... really...
Always ,
YOURS
Friday, April 3, 2009 ♥ =-0
Simple guy
Simple thinking
Simple Story.
Gone without out a sound, without a trace.
Like shadows in the fading light.
It was a good run...
Always ,
YOURS
Tuesday, March 31, 2009 ♥ As time goes by.
I feel that I'm an on looker these days.
Looking at things from a different point of view.
But sad to say.. there are things which i should look from only my view and not others.
I wonder if i can broaden my thinking and think if many more ways, ways in which i never seem to see that existed.
But now maybe swayed with unstable feelings my point of critical thinking has been failing me.
I really wonder... if you really understand me.. (knowing that these thoughts are bad).
But on a serious note.. How many do really know the true me..
I 've played my cards well enough to hide myself.
But only a handful can see through my masks.
I really need to be stronger emotionally, spiritually, and also bodily.
I lead a simple simple and once again simple life....
Always ,
YOURS
Tuesday, March 10, 2009 ♥ The day I gave up being me.
Whatever i do seems to bring you uncertainty.
Whatever I say brings you doubt.
Everything is my fault.
Seems that no matter how hard you please someone,
How hard you pour out your feelings to someone else,
all is for naught. [ You just get hung out to dry ]
All seems inevitable,
I have to give up my personal interest and well being.
For when I want something in my interest,
I have to think for others.
When I think for others, I forgo my interest.
Don't worry I still be me in the flesh.
Date: March 10 2009
Description : The day I gave up on being me.
Always ,
YOURS