Wednesday, November 26, 2008 ♥ Updates! Updates!
Ok loads to update but so little time.
WEll firstly.... currently at my gf's place. Came over to help her set up her internet once again. Seems like some one really overloaded the extension plug. Couldn't open her cpu as the warrenty seal is still there.. Well dear.. hope u still have the warrenty on that. Makes things ezier you see... hahaha
Ok.. Moving on... This week at sch is really kinda hectic.... the half cram sem mods are almost comming to an end. Means.... AR whooo finally is gona be over this sat. Lab test to go.. haha.... online ones as well. Next week is MSN haha... hope the switching is much better and ezier then routing.
Last thing to update before i slp . SHe made hearts for me... ah.. and gave me in a unique jar.. >.< I wonder how would i amaze her. Well.. tml will be the pre-celebrations hope i planned everything out fine...
XT- YOu're back =) Meet up soon!
Van - YOur're back... chill out soon k?
Si'en -Get well ya? no more being sick. Stay safe as always... Miss you!
Esther - JIE MEI ! when are you gona bring me to meet your BF.... Xiang NI WOR!!
Eilm - Happy brithday once again!
Always ,
YOURS
Tuesday, November 11, 2008 ♥ Sleepy Tues
You know it's quite an interesting sight to see at every Tues lecture.
The first lecturer rants on and on and on about discipline. Whereas the second lecturer just feels high, happily enjoying his own world.
Train rides to sch are quite amusing as well. People wanting seats that badly, people wanting to move to the centre when there's no space left. Ah yes... and those that really stink badly in the morning. (IF you know what i mean)
Class was quite boring and had a splitting headache, definitely a migraine. Ah... as usual slept through AR lecture. So much for waking up early... haha (thanks dear for the morning call).
Meet my God-Sis ytd, quite a funny one i should say. Played pool in my most tired state and what a trashing i got from her friend's boyfriend , Beyond. Interesting name eh. Had dinner treated by my mei. HAHA EUNOS CHICKEN RICE FOR THE WIN! lol... Rojak was okok only. haha.. I wanted the peanut cripsy pancake! On the other hand. Maybe what's said is ture.. haha i dont really know.. but well... since there is someone after you let him try. We all get courted once in a while and they dont come that often. If you really don't like him then do nth to lead him on. OK? haha and Maybe someday you might actually make me laugh til i cry. Till then don't give up ya? XD
Well all in all my plans are being push back a day or 2. Got to get them running! Or it just might be....
Misses everyone close to me.
Love you always Dear.
Always ,
YOURS
Sunday, November 9, 2008 ♥ 3:35am
It's 3:35 am.. And I am not asleep. I still up staring at the dark black ceiling. It's raining outside. Raining hard. Lighting and thunder roars throughout the early morning sky. Once again I am still wide awake.
My PSP D-pad's up key is gone. I am unable to press up that easily anymore. MY Evo 8's gear ain't cutting it. It just wont move. My laptop is getting pretty much laggy'ier that ever... seems 512 mb of ram is just not enough.
Everyone should be sleeping at this time yet I am up. Mood starts to swing and thoughts flood my mind. School's kinda tight nowadays. Being at the elite end ain't what i want. Knowing too much is a problem. How to stay this high... i wonder..... Why am i doing all this one might ask. I am actually doing it for you. I shall not tarnish the reputation that you have. I have to allow people to feel proud that I am your special one. Maybe just being the average guy just don't quite cuts it.
Things aren't the way they were before, I suddenly realize that I am turning 20 in like 5mths. After poly it's army. And after that what? Finding a job? Study is definitely impossible. Sometimes i wonder why am i restrained to things that i am able to do. Having the ability but not have the authority to do what i want to do really makes one feel crapy. Yet again not doing it shows what..? Sign or arrogance? Sign of willfulness? Or plain childishness.
IT's 3:48 now and I still pretty much awake. Guess it might happen again that i would be taken out for a day or more? Or is it that i am afraid that i wont wake up on time. Or even at all.
Seeing lightning dancing across the night sky is true amazing. Shows you how destructive yet beautiful nature truly is. Maybe just maybe I am just a weak person who carries an empty shell. To hide away whenever i want and to just be out of the picture and just stay quietly in my normal life.
My dad just woke up to scold me for no apparent reason. And now he rants away in the wee hours of the morning. Guess I could say why in all am I here to see him like that. Doesn't he know what he do make the family suffer even more. A heartless old geezer like him, smoking his life away. Thinking that only what he does is right and contain no wrong at all. I am a sad son to be speaking the way in which i am now. Guess all he really wants is me out of the house, out of his life and making sure that I don't spend his money or what so ever.
I know you own the bloodly house , the bloodly furniture and the bloodly water heater. So what you want me to do. There's no way in hell am i going to let u torture my mom and sis in which ever abuse you want. (Now he rants away like an old man talking to himself as if he's crazy). WAKE up la. Who do u think u are. YOU are an unemployed old geezer whose living off retirement funds all for yourself and not giving a bit for the family. [note: I have had any allowance from him for the past 2 mths]. Guess maybe it's time for me to jsut stay home.
Protect what's left that is important to me.
This is what I vowed that i am going to do.
First --> I am going to do well in sch even if i dont want to. I am going to get an above average grade so that I wont be left behind and allowing me to have a change to have further advance ment.
Even If i really dont want to....Second --> I am going to give most of my army allowance to my mom and sis. I am not going to be a freaking freeloader.
Even If I can't be there all the time...Third --> Once I am out. I gona work my ass off. Dedicating everything to my family. Even if its gona kill me faster and burn my life out, I wont allow any of them to suffer. I will allow them to be financally sound at the cost of my happiness.
Even If it kills me...Lastly --> Should I come to the stage where I will lose everything of my social life. I will do it.
Your happiness comes first.I will shoulder on everything and move on.
Nothing changes.
It's 4:06 in the morning.
And I am still awake.
I can't hold back the tears no more
Always ,
YOURS
Sunday, November 2, 2008 ♥ URGE
I don't know why but It seems I am CAR gazing again. I sooooo Want a new model... DAM!
I want a new RC car model.
I also want to revive my Evo 8.
Argh... SHIt... SHouldn't have saw that HDI clip.
Dang.
I should revive my Evo 8 first [pumped up].
I am sooo gona bring u back to the days where u were my pride and joy.
HAHA here's an early request for a Christmas gift :
I will get you... I promise.
Always ,
YOURS