Name : Jackson Tay
Age : 19
Brithday : 02 March 1989
Status : Attached
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Thursday, May 8, 2008 ♥ ACT I
Haiz... it's only a day and so much has passed. Work was normal. A lot has been done to this blog and maybe i should just discard it away just like that. Think the 2 princesses will kill me if I did so... haha... Well what or where should i start...
Firstly... settled things with my ex once and for all.. the pain... man the pain... It seems no matter wha i do... or how hard i try... it seems that it was the limit of how things were gona be. Never in my life have I shed blood for anyone else... she was the first. How many punches have i already taken... i wouldn't remember... but it all boils down to the fact that I did what was needed to, which was to protect her.. haiz... Scold me for being a fool... scold me for thinking whatit could have been. I just can't take it anymore... it has to end and it did. I wanted to not at least to allow her to cry but it seems we both cried in the end. Can u IMAGIN that, 2 eyes and not one... maybe I am changing (quoted and changed from Eileen's : The world's changing).
The pillar has now received major damages, I wonder how long can i still hold up, but i know i must... for if i fall the others who are on my support will fall as well... A few mins back En wrote: I won't Fall. Hasn't Fallen yet. Better not say it too early. There are more who could even breakdown... I am not being arrogrant about it... but why do i have so many people's weight on my shoulders... Sometimes I wonder... Am I being too nice.. or be just stupid...
Who knows... who knows...
Special thanks to Eileen for the "not giving up spirit". Really thanks girl... Shall reward you soon with the urm.. u know ... urm... *coughs* 35min ride *coughs*
Esther as well... for the conversation... and the "try this and that"... help =)
Well today (7/05/08), asked for half day from my boss... and went to work at 2. Even if it's wrong i got to harden my heart.... freeze it's emotions... Work stress can do wonders >.<
Really need to get it all into gear. Lecturer's comming today(08/05/08)... later at 3p.m... hopefully... it would be a quick meeeting... ah... almost forgot... went to the airport's T2 entertainment deck grand opening.. not bad... PS3 everywhere hahaha with HD TV as it's platform display... uber! haha then played BF2 with Shawn, Janson, and Farid.. haha... nice one.... make use of the ticket ratio ah... watch out XD... next time areial attacks are for sure...XD
Lastly... Thank you God for keeping my anger and health under control... I know you telling me some verses to be particular about... I pray that i can fullfill it... thanks for being there where no other one was there for me.. it gives me the strength to move on... I pray that you heal my broken heart.. and allow me to be stronger that what i used to be..
I will be back and be stronger... even if it takes a few weeks to be stable...Even if the morrow is barren of promisesNothing shall forestall my returnTo become the dew that quenches the landTo spare the sands, the seas, the skiesI offer thee this silent sacrifice...
Always ,
YOURS